We're almost home, I say to her as she sleeps.
At a hundred miles an hour on empty motorway
what was cut and blasted during day
becomes empty gray parting black.
The moon is veiled over my right shoulder.
Dials burn red, red into night
Then the glaring blue of a misplaced xenon filament, oncoming
And the flat ribbon of river becomes
a steel sheet glimpsed under moonlight
as the road slips beneath my rumbling tires.
Now the wind screams down glass canyons through
brickwork veins through
empty streets
as motherfather sleep on the bench with oldcoat blanket.
The wind screams through crane lattices
scarem.
scarem off the streets.
Night's too long and too cold here
she's keening, doesn't mean much baby
quarrels and affirmations aren't from seven stories up.
When I see down there a woman embracing one unseen
like she's dancing, yeah damn nice number when I only hear the wind screaming
then puffs a fag and goes off pushing a babycart
and two girls holding hands holding arms holding tight
kisses another on the head like lover sisters
walk off fi
I don't sleep.
Not since I pulled back
the sky
and found not epiphany but
indifference
glancing past.
Like how she bleeds
nourishes
feeds the bare earth,
that wine ichor that spills
and overflows her heart's boundaries.
Through my eyes of cracked marble.
Amid the white,
little streams of red.
Warm rain
trickles down my back
electric delight at two past midnight.
If only silence could drip past the
roaring drive home on
an empty freeway
weaving past phantoms.
Back home to a quiet house
hoarse shouting only faint
echoes now
and a rat running mad in the cupboards with
ten lives lost, twenty to go.
In my ears
the words of fellow lovers of the
scribbled word
screaming unspoken meanings, insinuations
on the madness of being human.
And now clean sheets paisley and green
yesterday's blanket on warm scrubbed skin
pillows unwashed beckon
to an empty bed.
I waited for you by the sea.
The children are asleep now, sand wet
on their toes, peace in dusty rags.
The moon hangs high, bloated
pale corpsegas lantern
to insomniac dreams
and mindless caress of seagrass carved
out in an instant of dynamite.
I wait.
The instant comes now when
I drown you in the inky
black
flailing hair black against black
(Y)our flesh vainly comes up for air
(automatic response)
But your eyes are empty, have always been
and my hands are a vise.
And now the tide rolls back
From the blue desert, the white emerges
And no trace of you.
The moon was full.
A ripened belly filled with life and
be-speckled by the spotted clouds
of a moderate winter-spring night.
And I drove on
contemplating it,
respecting it and admiring
the beauty with which it burst
so naturally.
I thought of that moon
fused with you, two full moons,
a stunning gray shade of blue.
Striking and lovely, they
cast their light all around me
penetrating the thickness of dark
that I had bathed in,
that surrounded me.
With your light, I drove on
a road twisting to the inside of
your thigh, my car:
my hand caressing and moving
deliciously towards your center,
where I found you.
Cre
I have stumbled:
For days, for years, for a lifetime.
Longer than I've known you,
longer than I've held you,
I've traipsed about through the clouds
and lost myself in
my own heavy mystery.
I have crumpled beneath and into it,
and stained my clothing blue (with sky),
and ripped my jeans
while tangled in the thorns of the firmament.
It is incomprehensible.
I cannot count the mistakes I must
befall before I make it
back down from space
to your twisted, terrestrial tree
blooming plum flowered kisses
out of a benevolent earth,
and growing upwards toward me.
Filthy hands sticky with sweat
grasp, limb for limb, as you
spir
I was alone.
Every creak of exposed wooden beams,
And the soothing hum
Of the refrigerators intermittent buzzing,
I alone heard these sounds.
Within my castle of thought,
Secluded inside staccato moments of
Silence & reflection,
I dwelled alone upon the emptiness
Of my family tree,
And dined upon the fruit fallen.
Looking for memories to transition me
From black and white to color.
I was alone in my grey skin.
Progeny of a now dead man,
Funeral pyres of burning memories,
Ones I never knew.
Weeping for the priests naiveté,
In assuming I know the rosary.
Alone, computer lit and woozy.
No better moment for inspired change:
R
Current Residence: Quiet corner of PJ Favourite genre of music: Symphonic melodic black power death metal Operating System: Linux MP3 player of choice: Ogg123 Shell of choice: Bash Personal Quote: A mouse? It lives only in a house.
I'm a j
can't say it
don't write on newsprint
ourn
keep saying it and
you will go the way of
a list!
For accolades and sleepless nights, thanks.
Now, who says a journal has to make sense? Sense is for the birds, I say.
Yeah baby I still
got sand in my
shoes
can't shake it.
Thanks Dido for the little bits, even if I don't live in a flat by the road where the cars never stop flowing by. I do have time for sunsets, this time.
There's almost two million people here, and nobody seems to connect with anyone else. It's like we're all on autopilot -to some unknown destination. Switch off the computer and you suddenly find yourself standing still, passed by the unending stream...
Politics and relationships really don't mix, but what other option is there?